I consider myself a good friend. I am upfront and honest and I would do absolutely anything for my friends.

I have a few friends that live out west. I was considering coming for a visit. These friends said that their homes are always open and I could come for a visit anytime.

Was thinking of taking a quick trip next weekend. Tried to get a hold of everyone and no one got back to me. The one gal is someone that I have known since I was 15 years old. We were became pen pals through teen magazine.

I can understand that it is last minute. But I just wish that they would be upfront with me and say that it is last minute and they don’t think it is going to be a good idea. I would rather have that then hear nothing from them. Hearing nothing from them is worse than no. Yes no may hurt my feelings. But not hearing anything hurts even more.

I am the type of person that would do anything for a friend and my home would always be open to any of my friends even if they called the day before. The only thing I would want is to make sure the place was clean. And that we were not traveling anywhere.

It makes me question. Did I do something to upset them? Or is it that I am just not as good of a friend in their eyes. I consider them good friends…. but maybe they don’t feel the same about me.

I hate to even think that. It sounds pesimistic. But life is too short. And I do not want to waste time on friendships with people that don’t feel the same about me as I do them.